May update

Wow, been quite a while since I wrote a blog. So here's one.

I finished editing my movie. The first time I have ever edited a movie, but I think I managed quite well. Final Cut Pro is not that hard to figure out ;-).
When we (Theresa & I) first sat down to edit the movie, we were completely lost, and after finishing the rough cut (don't know what to call it in english), we were both like "Omfg, what is this shit. What have we done!?", but I ended up sitting for 30 hours straight editing it, and I think it turned out alright. Much better than first expected, but not too good = alright!
But hey, it's my first movie ever alone (one other and one actress), and we've had a lot of trouble with the production.
I'll post it here, or twitter or somewhere, as soon as I've had my exam, unless I fail ;-).

Speaking of exam and school. I had my ast official school day last monday. Because I managed to fuck up my school the last half year, I have to take all exams, instead of just some, as everyone else, but it doesn't really bother me. I've got 10 exams in all, and already finished one of them.
June 22 I'm finished with 'highschool' (it's not highschool, but a danish version called 'Gymnasium') for ever. Can't wait!

I've got a year left of filmschool, so I'll just be working and making movies this next year. Yay, gonna be fun, I hope ;-D
Speaking of filmschool. We're almost finished with our main project, "Freya", and june 15th we're going to be walking the red carpet at the largest cinema in Denmark, "Imperial", for the premiere. Yay, one of the most fun days. Can't wait!

Well, that's enough for right now. I'll post something again soon, when I've got something interesting to write ;-)

Production, day 2 - finished!

Yay, finished shooting today, and everything went rather well. Thought it was going to be a super long day, but we were finished shooting after 5 hours. Everything went pretty smoothly, and even the change of location went without problems!

Editing starts tomorrow, and I've got a week to finish the project. I'm a bit nervous. It seems like there's something missing, like there's something we've done wrong, but can't imagine what. hm
Excited to see how it turns out too. Looking forwards to seeing if people actually get the story, haha.
Oh well, lets hope ;-)

Got two hours before I can go home. Hm, time to watch a movie I think. :'D

Production, day 1.2

I guess you could call this production day 1.2. Cause it's the second day of shooting my exam project, but it's an entirely new script.

Met Theresa at the hotel (location) 2 hours before our new actress showed up, and had to rewrite the entire script, since we only have one actress now, and not two. 1 1/2 hours later we had a new script, and was ready to shoot. It actually turned out pretty good I think, and shooting went pretty smoothly. Fantastic!
We shot almost half the movie today, and tomorrow we're shooting the rest.
Looking forwards to seeing the final product (that is, I need to edit it first ;D) but this project has really stressed me out.

Speaking of being stressed out. I'm so fucking tired right now. Didn't sleep well last night, due to being worried about the movie project, and had weird dreams again, plus waking up every half hour checking my clock all paranoid.
Been laying in the hotel room for about 3 hours now, 'cause I really dont feel like going home =/ been watching Floating, one of Norman Reedus' first movies. It was really good, you should all watch it! =D
It's 9:30pm now, and I really should head home. But just don't feel like it. Don't feel like going home to a house that doesn't quite feel like home =[

Oh well. 'nuff of that! Here are a few pics of my new super awesome hoodie!
Sorry about the retarded face, but I'm tired ;D

New blog coming up tomorrow! =D

FML - update!

So, things are just über shit!!!
Here's an update on how my film is coming along AND how personal things are coming along.


FILM UPDATE
So, one of my actresses called me and told me she was really sick, and had to have surgery and afterwards stay in the hospital for 10 days. Which means that I have to find new actresses and shoot all over. Luckily it was only 1/3 of the filming that we had finished, but it's still 6 hours of work. + we have to make new arrangements with the hotel we're borrowing and my filmschool, which are lending us equipment.
I got a maximum of two weeks to finish the film, before handing it in. SHIT!


PERSONAL UPDATE
Things are getting worse here too. Actually, I had had some really good weeks (well, one at least), but I've been having really fucked up dreams lately. Friends dying and stuff like that. Last night I had a very realistic dream, where my parents were fighting, and my dad left. I woke up at 5am and between 5am and 9am, I've been waking up every half hour, checking my clock completely paranoid (which is really weird, since I didn't actually have plans before 2pm), and at 9am I was finally woke up by my parents fighting in the next room.
When I finally got out of bed I had a really strange feeling that I had done something wrong, or something bad was about to happen. I tried to remember everything from yesterday (was pretty drunk), but couldn't really remember anything that would give me such a feeling. Since then that feeling has gotten worse and worse, to the point of me actually feeling physically, and not only mentally, down.
BAAH!


So, here's a little update. I'm super stressed out about what to do =(

(In)Sane, day 1

So, first day of my production, "(in)sane" is over.

This time the crew consists of my friend Theresa and I, and two actors.

Everything went quite well today. Took some time to get started, but when we first got started, everything went smoothly. Every take was perfect, so after just 2 or 3 takes of each shot, we're on to the next one.

We shot the two most difficult and intense scenes of the movie today.
Before we started shooting, I was super nervous about how everything would work out, since we hadn't actually met the actors, but they did a great job.

Due to some problem with the shower, we couldn't shoot the shower scene today, but that will be done tomorrow.
The hotel we're borrowing are really friendly. We're staying there for free, and they let os borrow another room tomorrow for the shower scene. Super!

Here are some fun photos of Theresa and I from today. ;D

Trying out the mirror effect

Theresa

"Alexis" and I

"I'm on to you!"

"This is AWESOME!"

Looking forwards to day two of shooting tomorrow! :D

Film update

Here's a quick filmupdate!

I'm doing a short film for my exam in school. I'm making it alone though with help from a good friend of mine outside of school. 


I thought it was going to be hard finding actors and location, since we're only two people making the project, and we're making it for my school. But things went much more smoothly than expected.

We didn't have a room to do casting in, so we decided to get people to send us videos of themselves and casting them over skype. A bit tricky, and we knew alone that would keep some from answering.
7 actors replied the the mail I sent out, and they all seem really cool. Deciding tonight who to use.

Location was a bit more difficult. 3 locations are needed:
- Bedroom & bathroom
- Dark room for a hospital
- Park & street
Park and street is obvious. The dark room was found pretty quickly too, since Theresa (the other girl in my group) had a great cellar. The bedroom and bathroom was much more tricky, since non of us had the perfect room. We decided to write some hotels, though not thinking anyone would actually lend us a room, since we can't pay them, but two hotels replied that ofc we could lend a room. Great! One of them is Hotel Scandic, which is probably the one we're going to use. It's a 3-4 star hotel, and the rooms look great!

Besides that the only thing we need is equipment. Haha. But hopefully that won't be a problem. Lets hope!

We don't have a lot of time, actually it has to be done in about a week. So filming will take most of next week, and then we got the editing. Gonna be some looong nights, especially since non of us are 100% confident in Final Cut Pro. But I guess we'll learn.

So, here's a little update on my exam project. Will post the finished production, once in june, when the exam is over!

"Shut your ass"

Things just went from bad to super bad!

Can't stand this anymore. I feel so trapped. Trapped and confused about my own thoughts and feelings, what I should do and want to do, about love and hate.

I'm reaching the limit of what I can take. I can't do this anymore.
The fucking constant guilt feeling, the bad self esteem, the fucking constant fights, the harsh tone, I just can't take it anymore.

I was asked today if I was coming to a family easter lunch -thinger. And as soon as I said no, I was yelled at, so ofc I got angry and was then told: "shut your ass". Wow. I don't know what to think. What makes a parent use those words when talking to their child. I am simply in loss of words and thoughts.

I've got so much anger in me, I don't know what to do about it. For every day that goes by, I get more and more anger, and the love I'm supposed to have for my family is replaced by what feels like hate.

My life seems like it's just one ... bad/evil circle (or what ever the english expression would be. Danish: ond cirkle). Too much bad stuff going on, and almost no good stuff. Argh

Well, I decided I'm going to make a video blog soon, telling what my actual problem is, since many people don't know what is actually going on, but just my feelings.

>.<'
I need something good to happen to me! :(